It’s a truism when I’m getting ahead of myself, and it rarely means standing still.
Here and now, it's important for me to pay attention. I have a number of projects and paintings in the works. Of the larger oil paintings, I have a body of work, eleven works total, all in the realm of 30x40. I have completed about 40% of the work. I’m not over the hump, yet. I anticipate, that after the initial harmony of the first five come together, the next 6 will be like riding a bike. Just Kidding. That may be an error of logic.
To help in the next phase of refinement, I will spend part of Sunday and Monday prepping the final 6 supports. I’m working on Aluminum panels and they need to be sanded and primed. After that, I will begin my foundation layers. Once I can see all the figures in place, I will get a sense of the bigger picture and renewed gusto for the next phase. Managing energy is such a big part of studio process. It is the motor that propels me forward between slower focused stages. This should also simplify my next stages. Let’s see, shall we.
If the end result is a little more difficult for me to see, perhaps, it’s also because in each painting there is a female and the female is me. I’m my own model. A simple idea, a mirror and I’ll be right there for reference. True but something unexpected happened, it connected me even more to the story and gave it a perceived life. In the process I became the story and the story became me. So, I gave the story permission to evolve as I evolved.
I didn’t comprehend how much this project would open an internal dialogue. Or maybe, I did know, because each work began with questions and each maneuver of the brush held an answer, and another. This is what my teachers described as “studying”, others may say it’s working in “flow”. I may not have always been comfortable with the resulting communication, but I was being taught lessons in painting, and what's more, life lessons in parallel contrast. So, to this project, I am grateful, as a tapestry inside is being knitted back together after life’s usual and natural wear and tear.
There's an old saying, 'the best reason to make art is to delight one's own heart'. There is a vulnerability in that. That is exactly what this self reflection body of work is about, a look directly into one's self and to reflect something back that is honest and true without words. No judgement, no boundaries, just heart.
In the meantime
I’m looking forward to a little time in Manhattan, this weekend, doing some out of the studio things, like, purchase more oil colors, hair cut, work with budding art students, and attend the American Masters Exhibition Gala at the Salmagundi Club. It’s a pleasure to connect with friends and artists and to see a beautiful display of their artwork.